CAN'T SHUT US DOWN

Monday : School Day

Tuesday: School Day

Wednesday: School Day

Thursday: School Day

Friday: School Day

Saturday: NSTP (whole afternoon)

Sunday: STUDY DAY

.......Can we add another day to the week?

Whatever happened to REST DAY? X_x

Today I got lucky 4 times :))

1) The law quiz (which apparently i  failed jot down in my organizer-- THE STORY OF MY LIFE, can't function without it haha) was SUPRISINGLY and for the first time ever... a TAKE-HOME QUIZ! What are the chances??... Thank you Lord!!

2) My parents are yet to give me this week's allowance and without knowing john suddenly decides to treat me lunch out! Someone is psychic... Hahaha!

3) I pulled through my (dreaded) arnis midterms (.. I couldn't quite recall all the patterns after that looooong break uhoh) with a score of 21/25. Not bad for someone who wasn't prepared at all!

4) NSTP processing was moved to another day.. PHEW. No staying late in school today XD

On the contrary, the accounting long test 2 was returned to us. First subject pa. BOO you accounting! It was quite the worst beginning to an otherwise lucky day.

~
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

(we're gonna miss you relly!)

Hmm.. I think it's the weather  thats causing me to feel irritable. The downpour of rain has been nonstop and a gush of frustration has been pouring down with it.. for me at least. 

Hmm, i just realized that Rel is really leaving for Canada. 

Sure I've known it for awhile but i guess it's really just sinking in now. SHES LEAVING :( 

I know.. drama. But I'm really going to miss that girl. Since college has started I haven't been talking to her as much as I'd have wanted to (and with the rest of the barkada for that matter). There's been YM confs or short phone calls, and those precious dinners together but it really makes you feel nostalgic about those good ol' highschool days. Sure, a lot of ranting was witnessed there too but I miss being able to see the barkada every single day through all the laughter, scandals, tampuhan and drama that came along with it. Hehe. So here's to my phantom/dirty dancing/beyonce move dancin buddy whose stuck by me and gave me the best advice through all those late night phone calls even though she was sleepy na :)) LOVE YOU REL! You go show them that kickass talent you've got and be the next big thing in the fashion business! We all know you're destined to get there XD

Rant No 2.
It's her despedida tomorrow and John's invited. No, thats not the glitch of course. The problem is as usual... his attendance is uncertain due to certain factors (which I shall not mention here out of respect for the people concerned). It just gets me you know? It's a dinner for goodness sake. A dressy one at that. PLUS it's a house dinner. Not at a bar. Not else where.. but at Relly's house. How dangerous can a house dinner get? Hmm, thing is, I should really be used to this by now. I can't keep on getting disappointed everytime he can't attend a party, an event or whatnot. I mean, we continue to choose sticking with this knowing that its a tight situation. Hmm.. I really hope this gets better. Eats me up. Nonetheless, we'll work it out... we always do :)

Gawd. The weather's just getting to me. It's even affected my current taste in music, strangely enough.. its making the beatles, beegees and the cranberries resurface in my playlist :)) Not that there's anything wrong with that. I actually miss these songs nga eh. "How deep is your looove.. how deep is... your... lovee.. i really need to know! Cos we're living in a world of fools..." Hahahahaha. Here we go Xp

I've been reading a lot of Jessica Zafra lately. Ever heard of Womenagerie? It's an anthology of her earlier columns from Woman Today magazine. It's actually a really good book. Her sometimes cynical (or is it just realistic?) points of view concerning various life matters (i.e. commuting, politics, marriage, moving out, guys.. etc etc) is guaranteed to entertain and you end up laughing out loud like you've finally lost it. Hilarous really. Funny thing is, while it's been a worthwhile read, which is more than I can say for some foreign literary pieces I've bought at 300++.. and then gave up on after the first 3 chapters.. they sell it at P63.75 at our local bookstores. Isn't that funny? WELL not really (haha).. for the most part its disappointing. Local writers (and I'm not saying ALL of them.. im talking about the ones with undeniable talent) should be given more credit for the stuff they write. We ought to invest more in local talents. Hmm.

*Sighs*
 
I'm bored...

OHHH. I watched Spiderman 3 with John yesterday. Yess we all know it was a good movie and I'm not gonna bore you guys with Spidey crazed praise.. noo noo, that is if i even have any. Thing is, (although I would have to say that even with the given circumstances at that time, it was STILL a really good flick) my mind was fleeting elsewhere during most of the suspense scenes (towards the end of the movie). Fleeting specifically to our house which i thought was BURNING TO BITS o_O Yes you read that right. At a certain point in the movie (which I fail to recall), my brother Gerry kept on calling me up. I, in turn ,kept on rejecting the calls, thinking it was something which could be handled through text messaging, till I could put together a message that read: "In cinema. Watching spiderman". I think I sent that twice and the vibrating finally stopped. However in place I got this reply: "Back garden is burning. We're gonna lose our money". I froze. WHAT THE HELL?? NOW?? For a moment I felt all the energy draining from my body  while my mind engaged in a frenzy of WHAT IFs. Finally I stood up and went outside to call by brother. He explained that it was the kids' fault (my other siblings) and that there were firemen there right now trying to kill the fire. He also mentioned  that the neighbors were out in the streets. In my mind a scene from one of those  firemen movies, like Ladder 49, started to play. This didn't help my already speechless not to mention shocked state. "Hello tell me whats happening now! Where are you??" I managed to say. "The fire's going down na. I'm in  your restroom" "Okay fine. Update me" "Yes, watch Spiderman na!" Okay. So I finally got back to my seat. I, meaning my physical self, my mind was still roving elsewhere but I was trying to enjoy the movie anyway. And then it registered. What the hell was my brother doing in an enclosed area like my restroom which also happens to have only one window facing the side of the fire. Gawd.. Smoke. He could suffocate. So I texted him this (which in retrospect now seems funny): SAVE MY LAPTOP AND GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!!"

Hahahaha... Ohmy. Well, to cut the long story short, turns out it wasn't actually our  "back garden" that was burning. It was the vacant lot right  beside our house which the kids referred to as the "back garden" because they're so used to playing there. Still that was dangerous. Mom tells me the kids made a bonfire and then after extinguishing it, they transfered the remains elsewhere, which in turn, because of the extreme heat and strong winds, reignited. It  spread fast and it was really strong. Scary daw. At the end of the day, when all was well and a sense of humor could not be helped, she said to  me "Mia you missed all the drama. We were all so scared", I wanted to say, "OH. I think that's a good thing. If i was there.... ohno. Too much drama to handle na" Xp Hahaha.. I'm kiddiing!! Well half-kidding...

And the long wait is over. I did it. I do feel lighter, like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders although now  an unspoken feeling of awkwardness has replaced it (Maybe all that talk about disappointment finally got to  me and I am imagining this?) They took it better than I expected (Although it helped that I was expecting the worst possible scenario). After the drama we ended up laughing at my dad's jokes. Pshh.. gotta love my dad for his open mindedness. My siblings are acting all weird though. Gia and Gerry especially. It sort of hurts because I guess, well I was expecting something positive from them of all people. Got none of that and it sort of well.. no other way to put it.. sucks. Ohwell.. time heals all. I did the right thing right?? (I so need my barkada right now.. ) Someone slap me and tell me to smile na nga!!

Personally I’ve encountered my own share of desperate situations. Desperate in a sense of wanting something so terribly that you feel utmost destitution and worse, a wild sense of agitation till it is resolved or after a long helpless wait is over. This nightmare of feelings of course only happens most of the time when you are left alone in your quiet bedroom or when you lie awake in you bed at night (and all your dilemmas come to mind). Usually waiting is the hardest part. There is only so much you can do. You put in superlative effort but inevitably you come to a point when you just have to stop, wait and watch what happens. You guys know what I’m talking about. We all took college entrance exams and we all know the feeling of paranoia and helplessness that follows after you take the exam of your dream university and wait— the long wait that will seem to ensue for years and years instead of mere months. Helpless waiting which can only be eased by strong Faith and prayer.

Presently I am again in a situation where in I have to wait (patience is not so easy to hold on to in times like this). There is, however, no fine line between my situation and that of waiting for college entrance exam results. Instead there is a thick thick wall... a strong, opaque, sturdy wall that separates the two situations because now I find myself waiting for the right time (not for long because I am merely waiting for mi padre to come home from an errand) to explain my actions and admit to faults (I will admit to my faults yes, but I am undeniably standing firm on the fact that I do not regret any of them) to people whom I am afraid will be hurt and might not understand where I am coming from. Yes, how very responsible you might say. I am facing this maturely now (and getting ready to face the (I pray not) harsh consequences). Now think about this. Is it not ironic that doing something that amounts to such responsibility has to be this hard to do?

 

Indeed life is messy.

 

It’s draining all the energy this body can supply merely imagining how I am going to go about this confrontation. “...just be ready for anything,” you said. You’re right. I am. My hands are all sweaty just typing this entry to pass away the time. I am merely hanging on to my Faith, the feeling of bliss once the first (or two?) waves have passed. And you.

This waiting.. and the storm that is sure to ensue. They will pass :)

So I browsing through the Victoria's Secret website and found some hot dresses
Hahaha! I WANT XD

 Just a fun comfy summer dress!
 Another loose-fit dress.. I love the color!
 This looks like the black one i recently bought from HK!

...XD

Rarr. I'm here for you

"Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don’t feed me violence, just run with me
Through rows of speeding cars
The paper cuts, the cheating lovers
The coffee’s never strong enough
I know you think it’s more than just bad luck

There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you"
-Speeding Cars, Imogen Heap

What is worse than being extremely disappointed and pissed off?

Being extremely disapointed, pissed off, relentlessly bitching about it to someone else and then feeling like a spoiled bitch, utterly humiliated five minutes after.

(Even if the person really does understand you-- some emotions are better off kept to yourself especially if you're pretty sure they're temporary ramblings which you're sure to regret after sayy.. a few minutes. The guilt o_O).

Hahaha.
Lesson learned.. Next time you feel the heat coming on (NOT the good kind), the safest thing to do is to grab a pillow, bury your face in it and scream.
That way you're guaranteed no aftermath XD

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     Got back from Hong Kong last week. (Wee shooppping.. Xp Pictures here) Summer class starts tomorrow. ITM... Hmm, I wasn't able to enroll for Filipino and Foreign Lang classes anymore. No more slots by the time I registered Xo Oh well, I guess I'll just have to enjoy a light summer load then. I'm just glad I'm (almost) through with the entire shifting process. Loadrev nalang. All that going from building to building, department to department (INIIIIT) was super duper exhausting. Physically and emotionally. Hehe. Thank goodness I've got great friends XD Comtech. I could get used to the sound of that. So my math grade didn't meet meco's retention. That sucks.. but I refuse to let that bring me down.. Fuel for next year, thankyou! XD

     In between trips to school, getting the shifting process done, I've been watching episodes of Nip/Tuck ang Grey's Anatomy. I finished Nip/Tuck last week. The finale was funkyy, guess who The Carver is hmm? Xp That show was seriously intruiging. Loved it. With Grey's though, I've only just reached the third season. I can see where all the praise is coming from though. It doesn't take much to get addicted to it XD I'm hooked.

     So random. I have a new life resoultion. Overdue. Hahaha. Who ever said we could only come up with those during New Year's? Xp Anyway, I've decided to start eating healthy. Yes, I'm serious. I've never been the type to get all concious about eating junk food, chocolates, street food, and even carbs. I just never bothered to stop and think about that! In addition to the fact that I'm a compulsive eater, eating whenever I need to get my mind off something, that is. Anyway, I'm gonna give this a shot. Obviously, it's gonna be a hard road ahead of me, but it's a challenge for myself. No more junkfood, softdrinks, street foods, less oily foods..and carbs, more protein, fruits and vegggies, and water. Always water. AND no more over eating, I think that's gonna be the hardest part. Hahahaha. Let's see how long I can make it like this Xp I'm all for the perks though haha XD And since my ITM class starts at 12 everyday, maybe I can start excercising regularly too.. Hmmm.. Let's give this a shot. See what difference it makes haha XD

Last Thursday our Botany class presented our long awaited Wow! Philipplants Expo (thanks to Pau for the name haha!)-- An exhibit of local plants, their uses, morphology, etc plus a concluding production directed by none other than Niccole Somodio! (Hahaha.. Favorite na o.. XD) Goodness we've all been working extra hard to make that work since almost half of the class is failing the subject na.. grabe ah! Since I was head of the Promotions committee I ended up making the tarps for each booth as well as the brochures. Cara one of my groupmates made the invitation. Thanks dear! Thanks to Bixie also and her tita who rushed the printing! And to Nadene and Cel, our beadles! XD Over-all I thought we did a good job.. I was taking pictures through out the event and I was thinking to myself.. "Wow. Can't believe we pulled this off.. and its isn't bad either. It actually looks really good" but no one expected Maam Tolentino's speech..SHE was.. IMPRESSED. That in itself made my heart leap. (For those who've heard of her, you probably know why).. but it didn't end there. She gave us a 100 babbyyy! OH YEAH XD

Thanks to everyone who came also. And to samuraiboi for surprising me.. Hahahaha X)
Thanks for the support you guys! Worth it XD



CLICK THE IMAGE to view more pics!! Took a lot.. hehehe..

AND HAPPY GRADUATION GERRRYYY!!! Yayy, highschool na s'ya.. hahaha Xp

~What a night... XD